I've been awake for 20.5 hours already today, 8 of those I was working~

Just had a massive fight and there's more to come.

I have the worst headache. Ever.

STRESSS
D:

I'm gonna go for my L this week... finally.

The boyfriend is gone for a week... I miss him already and it's only the second day haha, but it's not as bad as last time. Now maybe I can focus on the five billion books I have to read! Or maybe I can sketch some stuff, play m games that I have seriously neglected.

My grad year! Oh man!

semester one;
block a ( english 12 )
block b ( biology 12 )
block c ( math 12 )
block d ( chemistry 12 )

semester two;
block a ( art foundations 12 )
block b ( spare! but I'm taking 3 online courses in this slot -- english lit 12, writing 12 and journalism 12 )
block c ( studio arts: drawing and painting 12 )
block d ( calculus )

like woah :P

Ah, I can't believe it's June already!

Agh, I'm getting sick again, my throat is so swollen and painful right now  :(

Been reading quite a bit lately... I'm reading Whiteout by Ken Follett right now and then I think I'm gonna start on the sequel to Pillars of the Earth... That was such an amazing book, oh man, I have high expectation for World Without End haha... Don't disappoint please! This Shadows series by Brent Weeks is actually really amazing, too... I adored the first book and I just got the second. God, I need to stop buying books, I actually have sooo many to read still  >:/ 

I've been spending lot's of time with the boyfriend lately and I've been really happy since that all happened... He's so funny and cute, I love him hehe <3 We're pretty much on the same page about taking it slow and all that jazz though, so we'll see what happens... I've been thinking about the fact that I'm gradding next year too! Ughh! Prom is gonna be so much fun, I can't wait to go dress shopping and goodness, I'll be outta school at 17 and I'll still be 17 over the entire summer! Strange...

And I'm buying a car!

Exciteddd~

Ahh, it's so beautiful outside these days, I love it! It's so nice to see the sun and not the rain, as much as I really adore the rain~

Life is good, friends are great; I've developed a stalker attractant or something though because lately a lot of random guys have been adding me on FB and when I add them to see if I know them by their picture or anything, they start hitting on me or ask for my MSN and stuff... It's just weird! And at school, there's this one boy who just stares at me...

It make me laugh. :P
I guess I should feel flattered haha~

I felt rly sick this morning, so I stayed home and slept for quite a bit and I feel much better, but my chest still feels really tight. Damnn. I hate sickness so much. But hey, blood tests soon and then I go off these stupid pills for a month -- which could be good or bad. Good, they may have stabilized my iron levels so I don't need them as often... Bad, I could get really, really sick again. So we'll see.

I can't wait for summer though, I'm so tired of my courses right now, ughhh. Dance and Spanish? I'm actually really glad I'm not gonna be taking them next year cause they're both so boring. Spanish is the same old thing, every day... and Dance? We've barely danced at all this semester cause so many people, myself included, were pretty sick at one point and since that... I guess we're just lazy, I don't know.

I've gotten back into reading though... yay! Can't say the same for writing. :( 

Family issues are picking up quite a bit lately, but I haven't let it get to me. I'm trying reallllly hard to distance myself from it and so far it's worked quite well―

Though I guess I have a certain distraction now that completely and totally works for me, hehe...

He's such a sweetheart  ~ ♥

i'm so ridiculously tired  :/
like woah.

rly don't wanna work tomorrow... might start looking for a new job soon too...
but something that MIGHT be happening this week may veryyy well change my mind very quickly.

blahhh

So I finished the book after two days!   

so it was beautiful and amazing and I couldn't put it down―
but most importantly, JACE AND CLARY AREN'T RELATED, YESSSS!
the end. I don't really have much to say about it right now until I've had some time to take it all in...

and that's all I feel like journaling right now!

Well, my anemia is kicking my ass quite thoroughly.

On top of THAT today, I was completely and utterly overly emotional all day. I was tearing up randomly from Bio class onwards because I felt like shit and other things~

:( 

Bah, we had one hell of a snow dump the other day! But no resulting snow day, unfortunately... Grr.

So I finally watched the Dark Knight a couple days ago (I've owned it since Christmas, but I was too lazy and just not interested...) but woah. Heath Ledger as the Joker? Sooooo good. I loveeee him. It's such a shame, too, he won an Academy Award! Which was also so great, Hugh Jackman danced and sang and I was all 'what!?' cause us to that moment I was not aware that he had a background in musical theatre/broadway/whatever the hell it was he did. Like woah people.

But life is okay right now, aside from being sick. Which I actually went to a doctor for the first time in five bajillion years, because I was getting pretty bad with the whole swollen throat and no voice and stuff -- she/he (I saw two doctors) said that my throat was indeed swollen, though not enough for strep really... She swabbed anyway and did a mono-spot, blah blah blah and we found out I'm anemic! :O Which explains the tiredness and stuff, but otherwise I had a virus which was in my throat (duhh) as well as like... a superflu or something haha, cause I was sooo sick. So wow, nothing like having all that thrown at me.

The virus is apparently moving downward into my larynx though, which is why I had been and still kinda am losing my voice. Though now it dulled down to a 'if I talk for 20 mins straight' I lose my voice kinda thing, but I'm actually not allowed to talk for the next two weeks, though I've been reallllyyy breaking that rule.

And I have so many drawings! But I no longer have a scanner. =(

Aw, well. I've been attempting to write 'Halo' and I have been, but I'm stuck at only 1,500 words or something and my goal is 4,000 so I'm regrouping right now to try and get a direction going here... I know where I want it to go, but I need to get there, soooo...

Pshah.

I finally figured my courses out -- I had to drop Dance and I'm still trying to recover from that, but I think it's better; I want so much else, so I had to sacrifice it and there really was just no room.

English 12
Math 12
Calculus 12 (oh my god)
Chemistry 12
Biology 12
Art Foundations 12
Literature 12
Creative Writing 12

I'm going to have a hell of a year, that's for sure.

we got our course stuff this week (well, I didn't, but I stole my brother's to look at...)


English 12
Chemistry 12
Biology 12
Math 12
Calculus 12
Art F 12
Drawing/Painting 12

those are the courses I definitely want to take... and then I think my last one will be either Accounting 12 or Web Design 12... I decided to drop Dance because I've done it for three years in the school program now, 8 years in total and I need more room now to get what I want in. aside from that...

Creative Writing 12
Literature 12

I want to do both of those online, but we'll see. it might be more beneficial to me to do it in school, but that takes stuff away from my timetable. of course, this all depends on if I can do D/P 12 without having done 11... I have to talk to my teacher when I get back to school.
 
because speaking of getting back, today was my third day off this week, my sixth day off in two weeks... I'm pretty damn sick, went to the clinic yesterday and was told to go and have blood tests, so I'm waiting for the results from that now...

but yeah. :)

just working on my social studies tonight!

Huh. So I figured I would get the new chapter finished this weekend so I started it and I could only write 1,000 words before I had to take a break. I'm so out of the loop with FF7 and my characterizations now, I think I'm going to have to take it a little bit at a time, because it was starting to bother me that I was actually questioning myself as I was writing.

Me! Over FFVII! Blasphemy.

But no, that wasn't me saying it'll take me longer than this weekend. It will be finished!

Wowww, I love DBSK's MIROTIC & Wrong Number   ♥ 
I thought I would like the jp version better! And it's quite good, but I think I like the korean version better.
Weirdddd. Not that I have anything against korean music, because next to jp, I love it, but I'm more inclined to listen to jp.

It's snowing here today and I don't work all week... and I had my English final this morning. Woo. I bullshit my way through the first essay (whoops...), but the last essay was easy. Hehe... just math and chem left to go! :O

I have finally begun my writing, yayy. I updated Unforgivable and Cherished, as well as posted two new oneshots. Riku&Kairi and a Yuri&Estelle (addiction).



and before I go... ♥ if you like asian music like moi, you should def check out F.T Island Vol. 2 ... soooo good.

and woah, DBSK's   doushite   just came on. niceee, I likee.
this is clearly my anual time of collecting new jp/korean music.

=)

I hate this no writingggg. I'm very close to finishing this semester though (two more weeks!) and then I can throw myself back into it, so I guess that makes me feel better...  :(

Otherwise...

IM SO OBSESSIVE OVER TALES OF VESPERIA, XBOX360 PWNAGE. >:O 
I CAN'T STOP PLAYING ITTTTTT ---


yuri & estelle foreverrr ♥

I miss writing up new LJ entries all the time like I used to, jeez.

I haveeeee several things on my list for tonight -- my relaxing, FREE night! I actually started, last night, to write and did so for about an hour an a half, two hours but it was nothing I have already that needed to be worked on -- no, it was new. A Jasper&Alice story (I can't help it, damn it!). I wrote three chapters of it and already have everything else planned out in my head.

I also have to do a fic or art or something for the Inu/Kag comm. I am for Dec. 4th of their Advent Calendar this year. :)

Speaking of art -- I can't wait for next semester. My creative side really has died; I barely even doodle anymore! What the hell, says me. I miss drawing and writing... it's so weird, but I just have no time.

Reading the last of the trilogy by Nora Roberts, the Sign of Seven. Soooo good. Seriously. Her trilogies, I always love them. I'm not too keen on her single works anymore, but her trilogies are always quite good. Yep and yep. I have a hugeeee pile of books to get through afterwards, bleh.

Ew, Rob Pattinson's song just came on.I bought the Twilight OST, which I actually adore. I'm veryyy pleased with it. I also happened to buy the sexiest Twilight bookmark, which features JAMES (whyyy do you dieee?) andd I may have bought two keychains.

Team Edward and Team Jacob keychains...

...

I couldn't choose! And I'm allowed to be a fangirl at some point, right?

Blehhh, so I got through the 25th pretty alright. It was a pretty depressing day all around, but I expected no less.

My report card was kind of terrible; three B's and one A. Not good. But I'm going to pick up the slack this term and strive for straight A's three terms this year and get over it. As soon as this semester is over though, all my academics ironically except for Bio, I have freedommm.

:) 

I have been writing, for sure. I have been writing in a nice, new notebook on every little thing I can. Mostly my collection Trust because I'm so damn close to finishing it! I can't wait to start really writing again though, I feel so terrible and it just feels wrong not to be writing all the time, but I have to devote my time elsewhere atm. So I apologize and hope for forgiveness...

...

:)

So excited for Christmas.

And I saw Twilight the night it came out! Review will be coming soon.

WHAAA?

How does one person (me!) get called a slutty whore and a bitch in one day, on top of being told that I leave my top buttons of my shirt open for tips!?

I love you guys, ahaha.

Sooooo, I think it's past time for me to have a real LJ post.

I am sooooo tired. I have out writing on hold and I barely have time to sit down and read books anymore because of school, after-school stuff, work, papers and all these damn TV shows! Jeez, they just grow out of thin air, seriously. n___n;

School has been... interesting. I really hate going everyday. If I could work 24 hours a day all week instead of going? I mean, I think I would end up enjoying that more than school. I've just completely lost any drive for it. Same with writing. Same with drawing. Same with reading, too, I just want to do nothing when I do have free time.

I'm so blah.

Family life has been up and down as per usual, but everything is very tense in this house and in every other house that my family occupies... except for one. But they're perpetually happy anyway. The main problem right now? My brother. MAJORLY. He totally caused me to have a breakdown last night. He is making this particular time of year much worse than any of us need it to be. But I don't want to go into it, because I'd rather pretend it isn't happening.

If you couldn't tell? Work is amazing. I love it and I love the people there! ♥ I have never felt more at home out here than I do right now at my workplace, we're like one huge family, always bickering and joking around... and of course we actually fight quite a bit, but working for eight hours with moody people tends to make one moody as well, I think... So this has been a very good thing for me, definitely. lol Plus, I got my cousin to get a job there too and we're BFF's so it all works out. :P

But I really need to start picking up on all this reading and writing and stuff -- I don't want to be losing interest in these things! I think I'm just so tired and depressed over family and friend shit still, I have no drive.

Got to get it back. ;)